Month: January 2014


I have a love-hate relationship with mathematics.
(oh dear, that sounds so cliche I know)

Its just that I can’t quite say I hate it because I know of its importance & I can’t deny that I do honestly feel an unexplainable surge of pride + relieve + joy when I am able to solve math questions. I love some topics, I detest some topics. Still, the entirety of Math, is such an important arena…
Many times, I hear myself complaining & whining about how useless, whatever I was tackling with, was. They seemingly made no sense to the impossibly foolish girl I was. This is really because I am a person who needs to spend crazy amount of time analysing & speculating about … well, anything. Yet math requires one to be fast & focused. Math & I, we just have too much differences.
I am not a smart girl, this I honestly proclaim. Its an obvious secret that one can really differentiate a smart one from a dumb one just by looking at how well one is with Math. Those who conquer Math well, they usually land in pretty decent places. Sadly, I can’t say the same for all who conquer languages well.

Anyway, (I can’t believe I’m saying this but still) thank God for Mathematics. Its an amazing way of … erm, communicating (almost from God to us really) & understanding things. I’m not good at it, but I truly appreciate Math for all it’s worth, and I am always in awe of those who love Math & can interpret it well.

This video is so beautiful. It actually moved me to write about it – to write about Math, to appreciate Math. I almost feel like I am betraying my real self.